MY loveeesss...how is everybody? 

Felt a little wild there, haha :) 

skip to the red part, then come back...

well hiyaa..I'm back .. again. we have school OFF tomorrow, yay yay yay; and therefore, no worries about escuela tomorrow. Our profesora already moved the homework due to wednesday...so hip hip hoorayy!! 

(even though i should be studying for thermodynamics as well as some net ionics..) 

gahhhh..who gives a fuckkk. (my future self working at mcdonalds) 

anyways, its been a stretch of time since I haven't been in the "internet world". I used to look at common law porn everyday, used to watch 106 and park everyday, and do random shit. no more of that. lo siento :( 

BUTTTTT.....too many of my recent posts have been downers. just all about the "future" and how much I hate school. fuck it. lets start a different route. 

but before anything, STAY SAFE FOR HURRICANE SANDY. we're on the east coast, and thank the lord that nothing too bad happened to our area. But we saw all the nasty shit that New Jersey and New York are getting..and my lord, STAY SAFE. And to all those that have been lost during this hurricane, RIP, respect.

Imma tell you though, being a good time native of the atlantic, hurricanes aren't that big a shock...east coasters are pretty much used to it (some have hurricane parties!). but that doesn't mean it's nothing. this stuff is serious, and its more than anything; to be important, safe and sound wherever.

(I don't live in new york..but it still applies :) )

allright, back on the free way. uhuhuhmm, so I wanna get an update to common law....is it coming back or not?

I really hope it comes back...it was just such an amaiznininignigng show...I can't eeven. that's why I dedicated this evening to go on the internet, and search up some awesome common law fanfics, and get my dose of fluff, and some nice lovin ;) 

AND I MISS 106 AND PARK SOO FUCKING MUCH...my god. my whole schedule is really fucked up, and I don't get to watch it anymore.

I'm really sad I don't get to see Terrence tho :'( his fine ass on my television screen :( and I miss Rocsi's positive energy...

BUTTTT..I heard that Bow Wow is a new one! woo! thats some news! if you guys have been watching...do you like the new hosts? wish I could get back in the groove..

I'm trying to find some online re-runs of full episodes of 106, imma try to catch up in the mornings... miss it sooo much...and can't wait to see Terrence and Rocsi on my television screen in the future ! 

RANDOM FACT. 

I love COSMO. the magazine. except the online one. that's the online magazine website that I always check in with, when I'm in the mood to go to those kind of "beauty" websites. But thats why i love cosmo...it doesn't shove all beauty in it...it has something fearless as well ;) 

RANDOM FACT:

I love, and I mean love a candle that is COOKIES. any cookie/freshly baked cookie scented candle...cookoo. loveee ittt...soo muchh

Allright..i think that's it for today. even though tomorrow is off, i have been procrastinating for the whole weekend...when i could have gotten loads of work done. it's adios for now! 

have a great day, stay safe, and take care :) 

funnyish pictures...the second one you'll understand if you've seen the ad ;) 

Today..

Today has a feel to it. A really, calm feel to it. 

Looking outside,it's a bit cloudy...yeah, Hurricane Sandy is making its move I guess...but it's not TOO bad...no raining or super windy..



Right now, I have a sweatshirt and sweatpants on, my glasses, and hair in a bun. home swag..




Tomorrow we have school...so far. What that means, is I'm BEGGING. BEGGING. that we don't have school tomorrow...pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee 

I am listening to hip hop straight from the city itself..
those of you guys that use google chrome, go to the webstore and find "radio"...their description looks something like.. Listen Radio Online - Radio Stations From The USA, UK, France, Germany, Italy, Russia, India, Brazil, Mexico, Spain, Australia,…




Anyways, click on United States, and go to OneHipHop, which is straight from NY; and I've been listening to it since like 10 in the morning. nonstop, i lovee it. I love how they don't have the shitty hip hop music today...they have the classic, but still some good new ones :)   But there are soo many other ones as well, I like the trance one too :) and it also has other nations as well, so you can play around :D 

I have CHEMISTRY homework due tomorrow (ouch..chemistry..), and I haven't started it yet. fuckk it. 

umhmhmhmhmhmh...so I kinda love miami. I just saw a beautiful picture of ocean drive recently, and I was like "oh my fuckin god...that is soo fuckin beautiful"; and ever since then, I'm in love love love with miami. 



I really really hope I live there one day. it just seems so perfect, it's a beautiful city, beaches, sexy guys, so much diversity, beautiful weather, the sports...everything about it, is just so perfect. 



the only thing that draws me back is the high cost of living. I've heard that it's quite expensive, which might be a bummer for me...whenever in the future. god, but the nightlife is just so live...I've seen some descriptions and pictures...its a damn live fiesta down there. wishhh i coulddd. 

ugh just even the name. "miami" sounds so calm, with a hint of a breeze, and just heaven. ya know? 

favorites and choices come and go, but whatever goes; i hope I live in a big city one day...that's live all day round :) 



uhuhuhhm. what else? jobs. recently,I've been thinking about the future..in particular  my career in the future. I have no idea, in anyway, what I wanna be....I have a couple interests though..

-I kinda like marine life. like, the anatomy of whales/sharks..etc, that's kinda cool..

-forensics seems kinda cool as well. its cool tryin to figure out who did what..and it just seems like a really cool job :)

-make up artist..?err. my parents and family and friends would be mad if I chose this. and thats not to diss the amazing makeup artists out there.. (damn, do you guys know how many women praise you for making them feel beautiful? just that hint of confidence does so many wonders...). this one seems like a celebration; makeup has something that's always been play, nothing too serious, just have fun with it for me. but, all my family would probably be highly disappointed, cut of all ties with me...

i can see myself with this one though. maybe somewhere in a big city, makeup artist, couple of tattoos maybe, no marriage, no kids, fiesta, celebrating life, maybe a couple of onenight..., the life. which seems crazy to others. I realize that.



I'm a big fan of the "live hard, die young" motto. thats not to say that i'm a fan of getting drunk every night. I'm just saying to have fun with life.

I saw this pic somewhere recently..



and this is exactly what i'm afraid of. to be honest, i don't want to live to be 100 (i know I probably might not make it to tomorrow or the next nano second...who knows where life will take ya..)  

I don't wanna go through the whole "retirement" and save for your old age, raise kids..noo. noo. noo. 

i just wanna be free ya know? too many days in life staying at home with no color. i just wanna do something...just free. 



but then, when you think about it. you gonna go to all the parties, but how the hell are you gonna pay for all those rounds? for a good living, you gonna need one hell of a good job. 

so thats where it bums me. I need something to kinda pay well, but I don't want to have a boring job...ever..

snap back to reality. but every single one of us, damn well, knows that life doesn't go the way you want it to sometimes. sure, you are responsible for your own happiness; but sometimes you have no control over what happens in your life.. so let's just live the moment, be happy for what we got...and live :) 

but anyways, have funn today, SMILEEEE.
and take care :) 

yooo

yooooo! what up my homies? 

yooo. so you know the widely known and used term "practice what you preach" ... i decided to give that a swing today. 

If you guys have read this post.. : http://freshlysensual.blogspot.com/2012/08/bad-mood-thendance-moan-and-laugh.html

you should know I should learn how to practice what I preach.

Anyways fuckerrs,....give this a shot! really. like really. GO AND LISTEN TO SOME CRAZY PARTY SONG. (make it spanish..it's more fun that way!) , GO MASTURBATE (eeeww! fuck outtaa herree), AND GO LAUGH! 

so, from my word choice and use of caps lock, you might be guessing I might be slightly drunk or high. nope. im 1 hunnid % sober right now. Why am i using all these black terms? cause nigga, I loveedd the hood. and once you go black, you never go backk ;) 

anyways, I was listening to SMILE- by Scarface and Tupac; and there was this awesome intro, that did for me: 

There's gon' be some stuff you gon' see
that's gon' make it hard to smile in the future.
But through whatever you see,
through all the rain and the pain,
you gotta keep your sense of humor.
You gotta be able to smile through all this bullshit.
Remember that.
Mmm, yeah.
Keep ya head up.Yeah.

especially when he said the "sense of humor". I look back, and Tupac was right. really...when you gotta see through all this bullshit...look at the positive.

which for me, is pretty hard. I'm a person to always compare everything, and I'm quite sensitive. one comment can haunt me for weeks. but I'm trying to make myself stronger.

I've always tried to be a people-pleaser. even last year, aka "my golden age". ha, but no more. badass mode on. no more caring, thinking, or anything about what people think. i'm done with that.

and you gotta look like that as an evolving phase. at the end, whatever bullshit you're going through, is gonna make you stronger (lil wayne..drop the world :D ).  

compared to some of you guys, I'm not going through ANYTHING. i've read and heard stories about others so less fortunate. and whatever you guys are going through..just stay strong. 

shit, why am I saying that? I don't know how it feels to suffer. why am i preaching when I don't know shit? 

anyways, wherever you are...like Tupac said, "you gotta keep your sense of humor". 

smile. here's the record, if you wanna take a gander at it. 

anyways, the video is not mine. yo my homies, if you are truly having a bad day....a bad week...seems like a bad life..

then keep your head up. smile. take care. 

for all those out there that wanna end their lives, fuck it. don't. know why? cause fuck people. that's why. that's why. people call you fat, ugly, stupid. so? so fucking what?

every single one of you has this thing called talent...and a dream. and every single one of you has a place in the world. even though that's not where your parents, friends, or family wants you to be. 

say fuck it. if your ugly...guess what? you're not. you're beautiful in every form. we all can't look like megan fox, and we shouldn't try to be either. you're more than beautiful, and guess what? when you're on your death bed (which god forbid that happens), you don't think about how many booty calls and how many times people call you "pretty". you think about the memories with friends, the amazing times you have.

that's what matters at the end.

people call you fat? fuck them. you probably have a gorgeous body. and if you don't like it yourself, then go and change it. hell, I'm trying to lose 10 pounds ever since June! haha, we all go through it, stay strong, find something that works for you. and if you love your body, fuck it, stay with it. at the end, a guy isn't gonna put a ring on it for your body. well...atleast a REAL guy who loves ya. that nigga is gonna put a ring on it cause you got that special charm that sweeps him off his feet. 

people call you stupid? fuck it. maybe books aren't your thing. (their not mine!..don't worry, your not alone! haha) maybe academics isn't your line. but ya know...there are TONS of other jobs. do what you like to do. i think it's pretty evident that academic jobs pay a little bit better than your art jobs. but you know ... who wants to go in that same damn line? the GET A JOB...GET MARRIED...HAVE KIDS...SAVE FOR RETIREMENT...same routine. right? fuck it..you have one life, one shot at it. might as well live it doing something you love :) 

so SMILEEEE MUTHAAA! 

have a great day you guys! beautiful morning or buenos noches! everywhere you guys are!

thanks for reading,

and take care you lovely people

killer whale 1: "yo my nigga, what's that?"

killer whale 2: "iunno bruh, should we do something?"

killer whale 1: "nah bruh, let's just stare at it." 

killer 2: "allright my nigga. lets do that" 

FAIL..attempt to be funny and warm up your day :) haha but the pic is funny :) anyways, gracias to all the sites that these pictures were from. 

flyyyyyy

Hiya :)

Hiya :) (again) long time, eh?

Isn't it funny that on the night I should be doing studying, studying, studying...I get on here? and on the days I have nothing to do, I don't think about this..? huh. 

anywayss...howsss everyyoonneee?

me? you asked how I was doing? (not that you care or something). but pretty bad.

um, I just hate this school. gosh, how many times will I say it? Until I start liking it.
I hate it. really bad. like real. real. real. real. bad

everything about it. everything. the people are mean. there's no diversity. everything so bland. everyone here cares about education. 

well no dip, thats why its called SCHOOL. I understand that, but there should be a little fun too. this is a public, not a private school. there should be laughs, perv jokes, insiders, you know...stuff going on in the hallways. 

here it's just so black and white. no color. no smiles. no laughs. no happiness. well atleast for me. 

everyday's a bad day. damn, i hate it when people rant with emotional "feelings". and here I am, doing it. fuck it though. everyday's a bad day. I don't come home smiling, cause there's nothing to smile about. Or I don't even come home a neutral face...always kinda a sad face, cause I keep on getting dissed.

By teachers.

they'll be like "your way's great, BUT I like this way...and everybody...follow my method. i feel like her method is complicated and will take up more time." 

well thanks. 

grades are going down down down down down. I don't know why either.
math is crazy. I swear I know how to do graphs, but I ended up getting a 55 on a quiz. bad. real bad. others got 105. I still can't process it. 

I have a B in everything...I have like 2 C's, a zillion B's, and 2 A-. i'm trippin. so bad. so so so bad. and the quarter is about to end soon. my god..help me. and I have 3 tests tomorrow.

that's my problem! "You do this, and not study. no wonder your GPA's in the gutter". I know...but damn, it's so tempting. 

I still miss last year. everything about it. the house, the school, the bus stop, the people, the clothes, the smiles...everything. there, not everyday was a bad day. They were pretty good days in general. exciting, colorful, and something I look forward to going.

here, I'm scared to go to class. no really. i'm scared, I start to shake when I'm going to 5th block. 5th block is ap chemistry. and the reason why I'm scared is cause i'm stupid. the teacher randomly just calls on people, and she usually just throws questions that make no sense to myself at me.

and I choke a lot. I don't know what to say...cause I'm just so damn scared. I scared that my rep will start to become "the dumbest person in the class". which is understandable. but still..I just can't. 

I can't casually walk into this class. I get shivers, I don't know whats coming next, and i'm praying that time passes by quicker. not like "i'm bored, time pass", more like "please please, don't call on me, and the bell interrupt you or something".

this is the first time I'm actually scared to go to class. I don't know what I should be thinking about this. I just don't fuckin know. 

some reason, lots of people are bigots here. real bad. that's all. 

I just hate school.

but a friend told me today, that's it's actually possible to go and take like some classes at another school. it's not the school system or the city that has the problem...just the school.

I rethinked it again and again...and in the end, that's just crazy stupid. 

I'm gonna go through all this "class stuff" just cause I don't like people here? nah. but 3 more years.
I don't know how in the world i'm gonna make it. I just don't. 

i just hope that all this is a dream, sometimes. I wish I could just wake up one day, and I was back at my old city, and I'm ready to get ready to go to my old school. with my old friends, my old boy, my old classes, and the old, but amazing vibes of the school.

if only this was a dream
if only .. right?

allright. allright.
enough ranting. nuff spilling.

thanks for reading,
don't be a bigot
be nice
don't dress all prep (have some original style, please)
be open minded
have swag. not the rick kid swag. have the real swag.
don't be scared to go to class..like me.
study..don't get on blogger :D 
and pray on how these 3 years will go by faster...

more importantly, 
take care
smile
show some love
and represent.

How come?

How come everyday ends up being a bad day?
Like, how come atleast one thing has to mess up everyday?

jus. asking.
I'm not "depressed" or anything...just wonderin.