Today..

Today has a feel to it. A really, calm feel to it. 

Looking outside,it's a bit cloudy...yeah, Hurricane Sandy is making its move I guess...but it's not TOO bad...no raining or super windy..



Right now, I have a sweatshirt and sweatpants on, my glasses, and hair in a bun. home swag..




Tomorrow we have school...so far. What that means, is I'm BEGGING. BEGGING. that we don't have school tomorrow...pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee 

I am listening to hip hop straight from the city itself..
those of you guys that use google chrome, go to the webstore and find "radio"...their description looks something like.. Listen Radio Online - Radio Stations From The USA, UK, France, Germany, Italy, Russia, India, Brazil, Mexico, Spain, Australia,…




Anyways, click on United States, and go to OneHipHop, which is straight from NY; and I've been listening to it since like 10 in the morning. nonstop, i lovee it. I love how they don't have the shitty hip hop music today...they have the classic, but still some good new ones :)   But there are soo many other ones as well, I like the trance one too :) and it also has other nations as well, so you can play around :D 

I have CHEMISTRY homework due tomorrow (ouch..chemistry..), and I haven't started it yet. fuckk it. 

umhmhmhmhmhmh...so I kinda love miami. I just saw a beautiful picture of ocean drive recently, and I was like "oh my fuckin god...that is soo fuckin beautiful"; and ever since then, I'm in love love love with miami. 



I really really hope I live there one day. it just seems so perfect, it's a beautiful city, beaches, sexy guys, so much diversity, beautiful weather, the sports...everything about it, is just so perfect. 



the only thing that draws me back is the high cost of living. I've heard that it's quite expensive, which might be a bummer for me...whenever in the future. god, but the nightlife is just so live...I've seen some descriptions and pictures...its a damn live fiesta down there. wishhh i coulddd. 

ugh just even the name. "miami" sounds so calm, with a hint of a breeze, and just heaven. ya know? 

favorites and choices come and go, but whatever goes; i hope I live in a big city one day...that's live all day round :) 



uhuhuhhm. what else? jobs. recently,I've been thinking about the future..in particular  my career in the future. I have no idea, in anyway, what I wanna be....I have a couple interests though..

-I kinda like marine life. like, the anatomy of whales/sharks..etc, that's kinda cool..

-forensics seems kinda cool as well. its cool tryin to figure out who did what..and it just seems like a really cool job :)

-make up artist..?err. my parents and family and friends would be mad if I chose this. and thats not to diss the amazing makeup artists out there.. (damn, do you guys know how many women praise you for making them feel beautiful? just that hint of confidence does so many wonders...). this one seems like a celebration; makeup has something that's always been play, nothing too serious, just have fun with it for me. but, all my family would probably be highly disappointed, cut of all ties with me...

i can see myself with this one though. maybe somewhere in a big city, makeup artist, couple of tattoos maybe, no marriage, no kids, fiesta, celebrating life, maybe a couple of onenight..., the life. which seems crazy to others. I realize that.



I'm a big fan of the "live hard, die young" motto. thats not to say that i'm a fan of getting drunk every night. I'm just saying to have fun with life.

I saw this pic somewhere recently..



and this is exactly what i'm afraid of. to be honest, i don't want to live to be 100 (i know I probably might not make it to tomorrow or the next nano second...who knows where life will take ya..)  

I don't wanna go through the whole "retirement" and save for your old age, raise kids..noo. noo. noo. 

i just wanna be free ya know? too many days in life staying at home with no color. i just wanna do something...just free. 



but then, when you think about it. you gonna go to all the parties, but how the hell are you gonna pay for all those rounds? for a good living, you gonna need one hell of a good job. 

so thats where it bums me. I need something to kinda pay well, but I don't want to have a boring job...ever..

snap back to reality. but every single one of us, damn well, knows that life doesn't go the way you want it to sometimes. sure, you are responsible for your own happiness; but sometimes you have no control over what happens in your life.. so let's just live the moment, be happy for what we got...and live :) 

but anyways, have funn today, SMILEEEE.
and take care :)